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Tuesday, 10 February 2009

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    emo entry.

    i had enough.
    being poor, indebt, misunderstood, accused, a smoker, a confidante, a friend, not " a very good representation of Christ,
    a bad husband, a caring friend, a brother, a son, a buddy, a creditor, a debtor and the list just goes on.

    i envy lotsa of people being able to do that.
    i'm a sucker for being wanting to be a best friend, buddy of anyone.
    and being wanting to do that. i been hurting janice. my family and lastly myself.
    i dun care for myself much when it comes to friends and relationships.

    as i say. i'm a sucker.
    i dun protect myself from the start of anything.
    from work, friendship and etc.

    i believe in world peace.
    i believe in God
    i believe the Word.
    I believe in Media.
    I believe in promises.
    I'm think i'm just native.

    End up i hurt myself, knowing it would happen.
    i'm alone now writing this.
    hoping to make myself happier.

    God i believe being kind & forgiving to people is a gift from you.
    Its my strength and weakness too.
    I'm blessed to have this and oso hated this gift of mine.
    maybe if i'm single i would have just swallowed all this and eat myself with it.
    right now. when i see her cry. i know i sabo-ed her. sabo-ed her with the foolish things which i have done.

    Abba i need your wisdom.
    i need to know what things should i do.
    IMPROVE me.
    make me a better person with wisdom and diligence.

    I'm way too soft-hearted.
    always being there for anyone but not myself.
    staying up late to talk to friends who needs a listening ear, when i super tired.
    helping out friends who need a boast in their career path when i'm not financially capable.
    giving lifts to friends whom i wanna help them save money, or time. which i have none.
    i dun feel appreciated. i wouldn't wanna say i being made-used.
    i would rather say i being soft-hearted and being kind and thoughtful.

    anyone can win me over easily. i mean anyone can easily do it.
    by just telling me they appreciate me.
    i can give huge discounts to clients when i hear them saying they love my work.
    i give even more if they say they are my friends.

    i gave 101% of love out. does everyone gave as much back. or are they just using me?
    i had enough.

    watching benjamin button was indeed insightful
    made me realised that i gave too much to others.
    i neva loved myself enough.
    i'm all dried up.
    dried up of love and passion for life.
    Life should be about myself. its selfish but its a fact. someone actually died for me so that i can enjoy now.
    end up i alwiz wanna die for others before i can die and enjoy myself.

    i'm not being fair to myself and my family.

    there is a long entry. decided to censored a bit. :)

    i'm well. dun worry. Jesus is my redeemer. He is my Rock.
    All this shall come to pass! as written in bible
    i'm been hurt. He is my comforter.
    Thank God for Jesus.
    Thank God for Janice and my family.
    Thank God for My Church and my friends.

    I love u all :)




Friday, 07 November 2008

  • hmmmm...

    not a very good day for me today.
    meeting sponsors, endless meetings.
    4meetings liao.
    all seems not so fruitful at all.

    But i know Jesus's favor and Peace is with me.
    i'm still waiting for my next sponsor now.
    30mins passed...
    i so bored....
    waiting...
    so write blog to write down how i feel now.

    Jesus you are my advocate!
    u will make me conquer all things..
    i will not feel sad.
    all this is temporary, Jesus's Favor & Blessing follow me all the days of my life!
    amen! peeps

    have a blessed weekend a head!
    to me, janice, people who know me and gonna know me:)
    u will be blessed too!

Thursday, 06 November 2008

  • Know And Believe God’s Love For You


    1 John 4:16
    16And we have known and believed the love that God has for us…


    You may know that God cares for you and loves you, and that He demonstrated His love for you by dying on the cross for you, but do you believe it? It is one thing to know about the love that God has for you, but another thing to actually believe it in your heart.

    It is one thing to know that the sun shines on us during the day. But it is another thing to believe that the sun is still shining even though we don’t feel its warmth and all we see are dark clouds. Sometimes we are slow in believing God’s love for us when we are going through a tough time. But God wants you to know and believe that He loves you in the midst of the deal falling through, when that job is slow in coming, when the boss is fault-finding or when your child still refuses to come home.

    In the midst of the pain, He wants you to know and believe that He is wholly on your side defending and taking care of you. And if God, the most powerful being in the universe, is for you, can anyone or anything come against you successfully?

    Perhaps you feel like you have messed up big time. God wants you to know and believe that though others may be angry with you, He will never be angry with you. Neither will He condemn you. The sum total of His anger against your sins fell upon Jesus at the cross. So He wants you to know and believe that He will never punish you because Jesus was punished in your place.

    When you feel unworthy because you have just blown it for the umpteenth time, know and believe that your heavenly Father still offers you the gift of no condemnation. So come boldly to His throne of grace to obtain mercy and find grace. (Hebrews 4:16)

    My friend, know and believe that since He loved you and died for you while you were still a sinner (Romans 5:8) at your worst and ugliest, how much more is His love for you now that you are His beloved child and the righteousness of God in Christ! (2 Corinthians 5:21)

Friday, 31 October 2008

  • This year is exciting... this is only October!~

    Citibank called me today.
    I been trying to avoid their calls for the past few days.

    "Mr Kho, your account is overdue for 2 months. We have sent a registered to your address.
    Its regards to your account. Just wondering have you made the payment. *Gone liao, i only have 50bucks in my wallet*
    Total amount to pay was $290. Pls pay by tonite thru AXS or by 2morrow by the cash deposit machine.
    *okie, me need to call L to borrow money liao :( *
    *Jesus, how can i be a conqueror when everytime shit comes i need to find human to help. I want to be a Conqueror. Not a borrow money person. knn.. this is my old shit. i'm a New Creation liao. Pls help me feel n be like One*
    i hanged the phone. called L, L cant help me coz he dry up liao. i panic. *CCB die liao*.

    * i dun wanna borrow money leh... aiyah.... AAbbbaa....sigh~*
    *heavy heavy heavy heart*

    Before this happen, i just closed a job with a movie production house. although i only get 1/3 of what i quoted for.
    wifey said, think far! FW, CL, and etc might be your personal frens.
    Dear! You are super favored n loved by Jesus n people.
    You neva know where this will lead you! Money is only money. SA shared with me when i was having dinner with her, i so paiseh keep thanking her for alwiz paying for my dinner with her. SA said, " i was at your stage, where money was a concern, you will come to a stage where money is no hold on you. Only Jesus is Everything"

    OMG... this stuck me hard. i alwiz say i not worried abt money, but when rubber meets the road.
    my car will stall. Thanks SA for being such a blessing in our lives.. :) your words held me up again.

    Jesus's blessingS are chasing you, u know? janice said.
    Amen!! yes!!! Blessings are coming our way!!

    HUNTING US leh!

    i was so happy abt the production shoot, 5 movies this year.
    Jesus i only ask for a movie production shoot! as in 1!
    you gave me 5! and out of the 5, i'm acting in one. :)
    Thank you for giving a chance to boast to my children next time. *your papa act in a movie u know a not :) *

    Production cost for the movies that i'm in!
    Dystopia No.4 - TBA
    ST - dunno yet - TBA
    Carrot Cake Conversation - 500K Production
    The Days - 1 million Production
    This new project - 1.5 million Production

    OMG!!!! Jesus blessed me, a 5 times o'level failure boy, who cant speak good english, ex-ah beng.
    such an amazing career i must say. I exalt U !!!
    I'm really excited what is installed for me in the future.

    One fine day you will see ANTHONY LEVI KHO | LET THERE BE LIGHT in the credit roll in a hollywood blockbuster :)
    I really see that. :P Thank you Jesus for all the chances and opportunity! Thank you for employing me and Janice :P

    Let me announce and tell u all.
    Let There Be Light is not my company.
    Janice & I are just workers aka employee for the company
    There is a Boss, not me, not janice. But Jesus!

    you may think its a cliche to say this.
    BUT THATS A Fact!
    He finds jobs, money for us.
    We just worked for Him :P

    Anyways, Best part besides the latest assignment which gonna keep me Jesus-ish-packed this nov.
    just wanna shared that money kept chasing us now.
    as i was sharing with AJT abt the job, *still abit worrying abt my citibank bill*
    Janice came rushing to me, saying " mummy so excited for the job! she blessed us $1000! *i choked*
    He heard my prayer. OMG.... OMG.... OMG...... really man. OH MY GOD.... HE IS FAITHFUL.
    i was like.... OMG.... He heard me!!.... OMG.... He really loves us... evil day is over. Good Days are NOW!!! Now!!

    after hugging janice and tearing together, praising the goodness of God... talked abt how Abba loves u.
    its realli touching to see janice tearing n so happy. coz both of us really know Jesus heard us.! He is really real!
    Its not luck... Its from Heavenly Father! Power to the max man! Praise Jesus!

    then after, BG called me, asked me to bill him for his previous job. 600bucks.
    i was like.... OMGGGGGG!!! siao one.... This Jesus is siao one...
    1600bucks liao... then after i recalled today AJT called me asking me wether i wanna rent my studio to them to do a shoot for a day. 300bucks... then i shocked... 1900bucks liao leh. i remember again. MW asked me to shoot his Gala screening. Another 400bucks. aiyo 2300bucks!!!plus yesterdae's iphone stuff, 180bucks!

    2480bucks... someone maths worse than me loh.
    BUT I LIKE IT!!!
    asked for $290, He gave $2480 cash + L gave me 3 x spoil powerbook, 17inch Apple Monitor, + a Powermac.
    OMG>>>>>> tell u my "formula" to get rich? i share share with u... dun say i neva! :P

    Matthew 6:33:
    6:33 But seek (aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right), and then all these things taken together will be given you besides.

    1) "Seek"
    01. to go in search or quest of.
    02. to try to find or discover by searching or questioning.
    03. to try to obtain.
    04. to try or attempt (usually fol. by an infinitive).
    05. to go to.
    06. to ask for; request: to seek advice.
    07. Archaic. to search or explore.
    08. to make inquiry.
    09. make an effort or attempt.
    10. try to get or reach.
    11. to make pursuit of.
    12. to apply to; to resort to; to court.
    13. to make strict inquiry after; to follow up; to persecute.
    14. needing to seek or search; hence, unpreparated.
    15. to endeavor to find.

    AIM AT AND STRIVE AFTER
    "AIM"
    01. to position or direct.
    02. to intend or direct for a particular effect or purpose.
    04. to strive; try (usually fol. by to or at).
    05. to direct efforts, as toward an object.
    06. the direction in which a weapon or missile is pointed; the line of sighting.
    07. the point intended to be hit; thing or person aimed at.
    08. something intended or desired to be attained by one's efforts; purpose.
    09. take aim, to sight a target.

    "STRIVE AFTER"
    01. to exert oneself vigorously; try very hard.
    02. to make strenuous efforts toward any goal.
    03. to contend in opposition, battle, or any conflict; compete.
    04. to struggle vigorously, as in opposition or resistance.
    05. to rival.

    His Kingdom!
    "KINGDOM"
    01. a state or government having a king or queen as its head.
    02. anything conceived as constituting a realm or sphere of independent action or control.
    03. a realm or province of nature, esp. one of the three broad divisions of natural objects: the animal, vegetable, and mineral kingdoms.
    04. Biology. a taxonomic category of the highest rank, grouping together all forms of life having certain fundamental characteristics in common: in the five-kingdom classification scheme adopted by many biologists, separate kingdoms are assigned to animals (Animalia), plants (Plantae), fungi (Fungi), protozoa and eucaryotic algae (Protista), and bacteria and blue-green algae (Monera).
    05. the spiritual sovereignty of God or Christ. ( BIBLE.COM I TINK CHRISTIAN ONE :P )
    06. the domain over which the spiritual sovereignty of God or Christ extends, whether in heaven or on earth.

    His Righteousness!
    "RIGHTEOUSNESS"
    01. Conformity to God's will in word, thought, and action.
    02. His uprightness, right standing with God.
    03. His equity.
    04. His justice.
    05. moral and spiritual rectitude in every area and relation.
    06. the pure, spiritual, heaven-born possibilities that have their foundation in the holy being of God.
    07. willing in every way that which is right and proper.
    08. His salvation and victory.
    09. peace, righteousness, security, triumph over opposition.
    10. your rightness, your justice, and your right relationship with God.

    so long right. pls read and appreciate, i take very long to search and type all this (yes, some i copy and paste)
    Seek Him... everything of His Kingdom will be added into your life.
    Things we all desire, Life, Health, Money, Career, Love, Relationship, you name it, He Got It!

    can go listen Rev. Col. Stringer's sermon on "seek the kingdom of God" sermon CD... Power To The Max!
    if you are envy, and keep asking yourself. Why you so suay, neva sucessful, freaking got lotsa debts to clear, relationship cmi, bo gf,bf, husband, wife, bo father, bo mother, bo love.
    TAKE A BREAK PEOPLE!
    TAKE A BREAK. RELAC. STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING NOW.

    FOLLOW THIS "STEPS"
    either one first oso can.
    1) Read Bible - spend time with the word of God! you surely only gain wisdom (Super Impt) , time will be rebated to you in heaps (dun worry), It will strength you physically, Emotionally, Spiritually, Health-ly and your faith will level up!
    2) Listen Sermon - So faith comes by hearing [what is told], and what is heard comes by the preaching [of the message that came from the lips] of Christ (the Messiah Himself)
    3) Praise And Worship - Gives you wisdom, strengthen your inner spirit!
    4) Fellowship - sometimes u dun feel like doing of the above call a bro/sis-in-christ. YES! calling a bro/sis-in-christ helps! Seek the counsel of God! not i say one... Bible say one :) talking and sharing with a breathen is like a double-edged sword! you are sharpening each other to become a man/woman of Faith! A soldier is useless in a battle when your weapon SUCK. your inner man is like a weapon, when u face your enemy in battle u must fight it off with your weapon. if you lose your weapon, Good luck to you. i'm sharpening mine everyday now. ARE YOU? i'm willing to sharpen yours with mine... if you interested! call me or janice loh! :)
    5) Confession - Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and they who indulge in it shall eat the fruit of it [for death or life]. Yes! what you say will happen. You are a King/Queen! Heir of the God! imagine. LKY's son said you are exile in sentosa... you will go to live in sentosa. thats how powerful your tongue is. I'm Blessed!, and all the blessings of God and Jesus is chasing me over!!! Chasing my arse and overtaking me and my household. Amen to that :P
    I'm a Blessed Man who is Blessed becoz of Jesus. I'm the fool that God used to comfound the wise. I'm the one whom Jesus loves most :P no offence to all of you! but ya! He Loves me! hehehhe

    okie lah!
    just wanna let everyone know. Jesus Loves You!
    If you are feeling down, despaired, sad, lost. Just know Jesus Loves U!
    Abba Father neva leave you or forsake you!
    Abba say one. Means CONFIRM! CHOP! AND GUARANTEE! for life.
    HIS WORD IS FINAL! HE SAY LIAO... ITS SAID-ED... DONE-ED.. CONFIRMED-ED...

    YOU ARE HIS BELOVED!
    YOU ARE CHAMPION FROM THE DAY YOU STARTED SWIMMING INTO YOUR MOTHER'S WOMB!
    YOU ARE THE NO.1 OF THE MILLIONS WHO HAVE TRIED TO OVERTAKE YOU!
    NO.1 OF THE MILLIONS LEH!

    CHAMPION I CALL YOU! REALLY LAH! YOU ARE A CHAMPION I NEVA BLUFF YOU ONE. I KNOW THIS FROM DISCOVERY CHANNEL. YOU CAN ALWIZ GOOGLE IF YOU THINK I BLUFF U!
    PICKED UP THE BIBLE WHICH IS LYING SOMEWHERE ARD IN YOUR PLACE!
    FLIP, FLIP AND READ IT.
    PUT ON YOUR EARPHONES AND SWITCH TO YOUR FAVORITE POWER PRAISE AND WORSHIP SONG! SING AND THANK HIM FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE IN YOUR LIFE.
    HEAR THE SERMON, THAT YOU ALWIZ WANTED TO HEAR!
    CALL THE BRO/SIS IN CHRIST WHO U FEEL MOST COMFORTABLE TO TALK TO! DIAL THE NUMBER!
    OPEN YOUR GOLDEN MOUTH, PRAY, CONFESS WHICHEVER YOU LIKE! THANK HIM FOR WHAT HE HAVE DONE IN YOUR LIFE. THE PAST, THE PRESENT AND WHATS GOING TO COME! YOUR FUTURE!! CONFESSION AND BELIEVE ( Mark 11:24: Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours!)

    Power rite.... you tink i changed liao rite! its not myself. Its Jesus.
    If Jesus can changed me! you can be change to! Just trust Him.. sometimes its not easy. dun worry just know if He is for you, WHO can be against you! rite? God leh! Creator of the Heaven and the Earth is your 大老大 who dares got balls to bully you. that idiot can only psycho you make you tink u cannot make it. then when u tell yourself that you cannot make it. the moment the negative words n thoughts come out of mouth.. jialet liao.
    the idiot in red pants is only good at using your own weapon on you, rather than he use his little useless tricks to bluff u. *imagine a very very very small midget, with toothless, just left the gums only... trying his best to "GUM" you to death... can hurt you meh? at most only have little faint marks and saliva lah. correct? Dun fall for that idiot's "GUM-ing" okie.

    Champion! fall liao, dun worry, just wipe off the sands that is sticking on your knees, just stand up, and run!
    you can make it one! dun worry! He's is your no.1 fan and sarporker!
    He loves you! really one! HE LOVES YOU!

    i feel super blessed thats why i type so much :)
    i hope you are blessed too :)
    I love you whoever you are! :)
    Jesus Loves you!
    Abba Father Loves you lotsa too plus XOXOXOX!

    ALK

Tuesday, 15 July 2008

kerpalz

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    • Name: Anfuni
    • Birthday: 3/20/1980
    • Gender: Male
    • Member Since: 6/5/2004

About Me

  • Blessed "Biased-ed" Child of God... 100% Real, no artificial favoring or coloring... Happily married to a Marvelous Proverbs 31 woman... Got the King of Kings as my pillar to rest on... What Else Do i Need?